Side note: this is a little bit different to what I’ve posted on here before so let me know what you think; It’s a bit more personal and real than the stuff I normally do. It was inspired by this thing I used to do in my journals (I called it a brainspill) when I was little. I’m hoping to do more of these if you all enjoy it!
It’s sweltering. I’m actually beginning to melt. How the hell is it 28° in England?! The road outside my house was melting! This heat is inescapable – last night I tried to flip my pillow over to get the cold side and THERE WASo NO COLD SIDE!
I had my first mock exam too today. How nice it is to sit in a hall with 300 other kids doing an English language paper when all you want to do is sit in an ice bath.
It scared the shit out of me though. Well. The exam itself didn’t really bother me but it’s just the thought that next year I’m going to be sitting the real thing this time next year… The year elevens are done at my school now so technically I’m in year 11…
I don’t want to be an adult. Why is it going so fast… when I was 7 years old I used to worry about the exact same thing. I would count how many years I had until year eleven and feel so relieved that I wouldn’t have to worry about it for so many years.
The future panics me.
Anyway, I didn’t really focus much in the exam. It was to hot and I have his habit of just daydreaming in exams. I was thinking about New York. I really really want to go to New York and I was just sat there planning out an imaginary trip there.
Also I was staring at this boy. So hot. Out of my league but a girl can dream right?
And now I’m at home reading outside in the sun. Looking for Alaska. It’s one of my favourite books! I’d definitely recommend it!
Actually, I’m so so hot. The only thing that slightly cools me down is a quick dip in our shitty padding pool which is full of dead bugs and bits of tree
But it’s just too damn hot to move!
Thank you for reading